WITHOUT YOU

Too much gone of the day

Yeah you were on your way

Said there was nothing I could say

And I got the drop on you

I see what you do

Just wanna see you run me through

And I don't wanna let you leave

Don't wanna believe that you lied and tried to deceive

Not gonna be alright

Without you

I don't wanna take another drink

I don't wanna think

I just wanna watch you sleep with me

Tell me are you free now that you got yourself far away from me

And I feel like I'm ???

You're pulling me down when you and I can't touch the ground

I'm not gonna be alright

Without you

Take a look back and one day you will see

You are the one that was meant for me

And all the bad seems to fade with time, well it's all in your mind

Why don't you lay your face down on the floor

I won't be around anymore

I won't do that

I won't do that

You watch out

IF YOU"RE LEAVING, TAKE ME WITH YOU

I DON'T WANNA START SOMETHING NEW

LIFE'S A MAZE AND I'M LOST WITHOUT YOU

Are you for real....

Hey you, are you feeling like me too? I need to get an answer out of you, well all the days all the time all the lies, lie on the line did you just try to set me off?
well yeah ya know I'm easy and I know it's true, that this situation isn't so easy on you

Hey you, is there truth behind your lies? Is all this love or is it compromise? well all the days all the time no regrets you're on my mind, did you just try to set me off? well yeah this awkward silence feels so cold and used... is this infatuation or am I addicted to you?

Hey you, tries and trust and planned out deception. The look in your eyes verbal dissection lose myself in you. And then sex then rejection Self destruct in you arms as your words stacks kill, are you for real? Are you for real? Are you for real? .

Hey you, are you feeling lonely too? I need to get some answers, some answers....

Cause I need to know what you want, I wonder how you feel, and I need to know what you want, I can not guess anymore... are you for real? are you for real? are you for real?

Pigs died when my heart broke into a million crying maggots....
My stomach has butterflies that are all sick and dying slow as they try to fly around in the
sickness of heart breaks and stomach pain caused by the all so dying heart....

The butterflies are fragile just like my heart is..they die soon so will my heart....
My soul seems to be lost and it cant find a home i drive and it seems endless....
My smile is so plastic that i hate looking at myself in the mirror due to that plastic fake smile..
My legs feel like they dont have blood running through them anymore and i dont feel tired even if i had to walk 300km's.....
It seems that life is bitter even though it seems super sweet but through the eyes of my family,you,loved ones and friends but it goes away the minute they have to return to their own ways.....I wish for a falling star to hit me hard so that i could be so wishfull....

At time's i feel like i go through days without knowing that days are passing by...it scares me...

So much for german pork knuckle's and good german beer......so long so far away...

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its weird how soft our hearts & feelings are....at times i wish i could be just cold and not care about anything...

I try my best to change to suit things around you,but never do you actually care to take note on the changes rather you just pick on the negative part only...

I really dont get it when people argue all their mind is set on is the bad & negative part...
I'm not saying that i'm a perfect saint and that i just focus on the good i do that also, but after awhile it hits me that our time is short why argue and just get more worked up on things. I tend to look at the good times that we had which mellows the anger and all...

Changes changes changes it takes two hands to clap if one tries to change why cant the other half see that and also try to change his or her ways???
Yeah it might be said that chances were given before and all...but nobody is perfect and sometimes people do realize it too late,maybe i did if i'm all super wrong for being worried about your certain habit's and what not....

Another thing is anybody and everybody will agree that no matter how good a guy friend is, it does not me that you can just be with him all the time just because he's your best bud and what not...there's lines which we should not cross...feeling are involved here...to make matter's worse you lie....which you cant explain why....my heart has been broken already but the lies which now makes want to know the answer why...If there's nothing why lie....the only reason people lie is because they have something to hide...I want to talk things out you dont give a chance or you get angry all the time or you just say that i say what i want to say and you dont get your point out...well if and only you could be calm and see things in apositive and talk things instead of the negative way...
so many tears so many heart breaks so many scars so many questions without an answer....
if a wrong doing is on your part things will be turn around to make it seem that it was my wrong doing instead of yours....just because your angry you said harsh hurtfull words but if i get angry and do the same i'll get even more for not thinking before i speak but you are allowed to do so...
I haveno where to run or go to...I'll face the music and i'll see things through...i dont run away from things even though i cant handle it....you easy angry run away drink it away and act like nothing ever happen...Is that the way??? then lie through your nose...but lil do you know that i have eyes all around and i'm not stupid to know if your lying....you always say this now let me say this ohh please just grow up...your not under 21 to be acting like that all the time and when you one you just be matured for the moment....I try my best to understand you,i work hard to make sure bill's are paid...But you just can't be honest towards to me....
As much as i want to pull the plug a lil voice keeps saying dont be like you...try too see things through...after all how long can you run away from things???
There's so much i want to say to you but you just wont listen but on the other hand you want me to listen to you...

Its like neither one of us will ever change,we're both the same, and that's a shame....cause when we were together it was right we had it all, you and I....

I really don't know what to do...I'm at the end...as much as i wanted to stop you i stopped my self from doing so...you left and you came back to sleep...I was happy as long your safe even though you had to puke so much..... let's just see what later and the days to come has in store for me,you & us.....Let's say hello tommorow.....and good bye to yesterday...

Honesty works the best...all could have been good if and so honesty was used....

New Ink

Some words for to remember and remind myself when I'm angry.take it as lesson to be learned or reminder to myself....

-Listen Hard-
-Speak Soft-

Maybe I'll get this inked on me as a constant reminder.

take care and much love,
Ian Dias