Questions

I about to write about stuff that I can't even answer, or it's just maybe me being me again with question and thinking too much. Like I once said I think I think too much.

Is there a word or right to say that I feel that blogging and writing out your feeling on the world wide web is a JINX? It's like every night before I sleep I feel like writing out so much and I keep telling myself get some sleep man and you don't have to write stuff out, you're no better then all those tweeter and every second up dater's on facebook telling everybody you're constant move and thoughts which at times I do it myself also.

Even in this old fashioned way of thinking and having respect for any soul out there I have to say that blogging out your happiness is a pure jinx or could it be just a death trap for the future and what things are meant to be?

Could I or you or him would have figured you out way before the year clocked out ?
Understand things that will happen and be able to face? Being sick in your stomach and being able to pull the knife out and push it right back in?

I have learned from the past and also tell myself that " FUCK THE PAST, THE FUTURE IS IN YOUR HANDS" and yes I have been doing really great and looking forward to it!!!

Point is which I have to say is it a real JINX or a curse to be pouring out your feelings on a blog and only to be back fired a month later or months later? Is that all worth it? It's a risk no doubt about it. Being chopped and screwed is not the best thing ever.

To my brother from a different mom this one is for you:

Would things have changed if I could have stayed?
Would you have loved me either way?
Dressed to the blues, day to day, with my collar up

Stay strong be strong you're just like heaven and time will heal and remember a year ago you told me "at the end of the darkness there's always a light" There's always a light at the end of a tunnel and hang in there cause after that light there's so much flowers and life that you will be so over powered with life. If it ever happens again another tunnel will end with much more to give and colours of life will fill you forever.

You may feel like it's 6 o'clock in the morning and you cannot sleep and thinking about tomorrow
and what's it got for you. In this life of mystery and pleasure's that you seek will always come back haunting you. But it's alright, that's ok even if it's for awhile it's alright. The dawn will break the darkness and you can finally see, and you have been down that road before same faces you will see. People in the need for love and everybody want's to break free. Tell me what's your poison and we could drink it together for you have done that before for me and that memory runs deep in my heart. A bottle of wine, ciggrates and whisky will be there for good times and bad times and the bond between us always also.

I feel the pain and I know how it is and I could say is everything will be wonderful and time will show you, It's an epic journey no doubt with many nights being shitfaced and not looking forward for tommorow but hey, Hello Tommorow and good bye to yesterday.