FOREVER 21

We all reach that dark & fragile destination sometimes...
I'm there i know that for a fact....
Looking for the light to fill our eyes....

-Ian Dias-
31st-01-10

Bloody Sunday

It's sunday and it's not rocking, slept early the night before....why cause i'm working on a sunday...How awesome....

Well why i say bloody sunday it's because in the morning when i was having my ciggie and my cup of ice tea....i bite my lip so hard causing it to bleed like hell...yeah it stills hurts..
then later on say 2 hours later while i was looking for stuff through my bag, i got right in between my nail where the lil soft skin is....Yes it hurt like hell...and it was bleeding....

After all that drama in the morning say around noon i rolled over to my other office...so you see my other working mates were cold so they closed the aircond difuser which is located on the ceiling...so it like 2 plus in the afternoon no aircond in the office...Gosh it is hot...So i rolled a chair over,placed it right under the aircond difuser's and jumped on the chair and tried to open it up so cool air could once again make the office cold...so yeah it get's cold the difuser is once again open...
so i feel like smoking get my ciggies out and my a quick look at my fingers and ohh shite...i got it cut while trying to open the difuser...yeah it bleed right through and it still hurts....

Well yeah i have a bleeding heart but a bleeding lip a bleeding inner skin of my nails and a bleeding finger on my right side...ohh so not cool....hence why it's a bloody sunday....

Hate runs deep for what you've done...

I've come here to kill
Won't leave until you've died
murder born of vengeance
I will close your eyes you fat fuck of a cunt

I may be quiet, i may remain calm but in me there is a storm that you have never seen before
You better fucking watch your back wherever you go....I'll be haunting your every step...
Look into my eyes and you will see that your pain is my satisfaction....
Look into my eyes and you will see the darkness waiting to cloud you in.....
You better run you fat fuck cause no matter how fast or far you run i'll be in front of you waiting

Iangraphy

Represent & not be a follower

GO AHEAD PUSSY AND LET YOUR RADIO PLAY THE SAME 15 SONGS THAT YOU HEAR EVERYDAY

GO AHEAD PUSSY KEEP CRYING ABOUT YOUR BITCH

WHILE YOU LISTEN TO SILLY FAGGOT POP PUNK SHIT

GO AHEAD PUSSY KEEP TALKING THAT SHIT

WHEN I SEE YOU ON THE STREETS YOU 'LL BE CRYING LIKE A BITCH

GO AHEAD FAGGOT KEEP PLAYING THOSE GAMES

I'M TEAR THAT PUSSY UP - I'M LET MY NUTS HANG

A Vision/Guide Line For The 20th Century Male By Mario

With these 3 simple rules you will overpower everything....
there's no such thing as the ol-fashion love story whereby it's all about love and love...
there's no such thing where you can live on love & air...

The super mario brother's have been telling & teaching us males since the early 80's about this theory.
It just hit me that it works for everyone....I have my reasons but i'd rather keep to myself so that certain parties would not get hurt by what i have to say but then again,just follow these 3 simple steps and you will be doing good.

Image was courtesy of another blogger which i kinda drop by weekly to read up about the updates on the car world and what not he has to rant about....
Thanks my dear friend for the fun filled image which got my heart laughing...
It's been days or months since i had a good healty laugh.....
I'm hoping & praying for better days ahead....Have to say that i've seen better days.....

Thinking about it i remember all those long haul trips when i was a kid i would be on the airplane just doing countless hours trying to get to evil kingdom so that i could save the princess and make the kingdom come happy & bright again...I remember the amount of batteries i would be carrying just incase my batteries die out on me..I also remember that i had the 1st game boy then a game boy advance then followed by the lil game boy pocket (if i'm not mistaken) oh boy were those days filled with an adventure that i could not wait.....
I should get a mario inked on me some where one day soon. :)

Cheers for now and get your game boy's out and start playing them mario's and learn.....You start small but in the end you will grow.....

3

Everything I do is wrong,
Everything I try to do is also wrong,
Everything that I don't do is also wrong,
I try to be everything but it never seems good enough,
I'm at my end on what i should do....nothing is what as it seems anymore...
It seems that the more i try to more i seem to be failing,
Whereas the less i do try, it seems that i don't care.....

Everything hurts,everything seems like a black & white flash of the past and the happy times
I have lost my will to survive...as i write this my eyes are filled with controlled tears just waiting to unleash which i can't cause after that I'll be short on my breath and feel like puking.

I wish i could show you the world i have painted in my heart with you.....

Finally, everything I love is pain...Everything that hurts converts to lyrics...

IN A WORLD
OF
FAKE HO'S
&
HIGH HEELS

I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly

Ok here we go,
i heard this song a couple of times on the radio...it did get all my attention...enough said i was hook on it...Then each time i like wait for the DJ to say what song it was or by who...it never comes..so today while driving to work and feeling the world around with the heavy rain just beating hard on to the ground the song was played....
I told myself Google it or be sad.. so when i had the free time to do so...i was on it like a doggie on a mission...like indiana jones looking for the lost gold and what not....
so after failing quite badly over Google i decided to call my mum cause she listen's to radio more then i do plus the fact mum is always around younger teens i may say....mum did not know...
so next victim was my sister Jessica..call her up tried to sing it out...instead she ends up laughing and say's Baba: " your singing to me???" damn....so tried telling her but we kinda thought it was 3oh3....then did the google which it was not...then next it was my working mate...she did not have a clue....so here i go trying out all the lyrics i could re-call from the song....then walks in the office another mate and i was like fuck man do by any chance know this song...???

her eyes grew big..and said yeah i love that song its my favourite song....(said in the britney spears way)....and i was by who....fucking tell me....and she goes wait its in my cellphone...i jumped out of my chair got my bluetooth on and said bluey it to me now.....

and yeah my prays were answered...i was happy as an egg plant could be....

well basically the big hype about the song is because i just felt so connected to whats said in that song....it was like I'm in that song with all the lil beats going in and out....it was magical...
well basically I'm more of a metal/funk/punk rock kinda groove...but this groove that was on the song was dope not to mention the fact that it had an awesome lyrics....which i could connect to....

here's the lyrics for the song...
FireFlies by,
Owl City


you would not believe your eyes
if ten million fireflies lit up the world as i fell asleep
'Cause they'd fill the open air
and leave teardrops everywhere
you'd think me rude but I'd just stand and stare

Chorus:
I'd like to make myself believe
that planet Earth turns slowly
Its hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
'Cause everything is never as it seems

'Cause id get a thousand hugs from ten thousand lightning bugs
as they tried to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
a sockhop beneath my bed
a disco ball is just hanging by a thread

When i fall asleep leave my door open just a crack
(please take me away from here)
'Cause i feel like such an insomniac
(please take me away from here)
why do i tire of counting sheep
(please take me away from here)
when I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird 'cause i hate goodbyes
i got misty eyes as they said farewell
but ill know where several are
if my dreams get real bizarre
'cause i saved a few and i keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that i'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
'Cause my dreams are bursting at the seams

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that's how I've been feeling for this past 25 years....
and yes i have this secret thingy for fireflies which i never shared with anyone....

First & fore most please do ignore the hottie & naughty post...i was having a high fever and at the same time going through something weird shite....its kind rough...

well its the 10th of january 2010 / 10-01-2010 or 01-10-10....it kinda looks like the number eight tortoise to me...don't ask me how...look at it for a long time.

I've been sick like since the 6th of january and today its at its peak...darn when your sick loads of stuff cant be done...it sucks big time...i cant whack full for my over time at work...i feel like a dog in heat always so grumpy and in pain...yet i want to be loved and pampered......

Alot of things have happened and changed some i myself cant cope with and some i just cant understand...well what can i say...life is full of turds waiting jump at your face.
at the moment i'm so filled with pills that i feel super duper sleepy....i wish i could just sleep..

Dec 09 was a crazy month filled with no rest at all...so much for clearing up my annual leave and taking time to rest.... :(

guess i'll stop here and write more tommrow....
much love....

Vision 2010-the count down-

Things that i have set forth for the year 2010...
Its just a some goals that i would like to see taking place for real.
let's get the ball rolling to see what i have in store for changes in 2010!!!

1.be a man without losing the boy in me
2.anger control: to be more like a ninja with a cool stream of moves
3.get more guitars even though i hardly play them these days but it will be awesome to have
more and watch & hear the wood get all matured
4.more music in my life, that will never stop as music keeps to evolve
5.start some night classes in a different field-you never stop learning
6.more art pieces around me and around the loft 57
7.maybe a laptop
8.to be more loving & sweet :)
9.to travel more and find my peace
10.get a weekend car :s14 or s15 or r34gtr or mark II or A31 anything as long its a rwd
11.a huge ass lcd screen with more game pads
12.a amp with built in tubes for music and music only with a ipod dock holder
13.get the satria (blue thunder thats my gay name for that car) a new paint and get it more
for fast moving rather then it being super normal at the moment
14.to be a great owner/dad to thinkerbell
15.thinkerbell to be super build up...
16.to get the house all warm and family friendly yet without losing that cool factor
17.to get my whole body inked up....its a must
18.to be loved
19.basically being a nicer person and make sure that i'm well aware of my past mistakes
so that i'll not repeat the same mistakes again
20.to be more matured which is kinda the same as no:1
21.to take more road trips also in and out of the country
22.learn the drumline real hard-that's a a vision
23.to get sexy as hell...(in a guy way though)
24.____________________________ : who ever reads this please do fill that one up....

hottie 2 naughty...

Rain
rain
Rain
pain
pain
pain
tainted
tainted
tainted
tainted love
tainted love
tainted love

Jokes to get your 2010 rolling....

ONE:I was walking through the cemetery this morning and saw a guy crouching down behind a tombstone. I said, "Mourning?."He said, "No, just taking a shit."

TWO:When I was a kid, I used to pray every night for a new bike. Then I realized that God doesn't work that way. So I stole a bike and asked Him to forgive me.

THREE:My girlfriend was in labor with our first child. She was shouting, "Get this out of me! Give me the drugs!" She looked at me and yelled, "You did this to me, you bastard!" I casually replied, "If you remember, I wanted to stick it up your ass but you said, 'That would hurt too much'."

FOUR:I went to an extremely attractive female doctor today for my annual checkup.. She told me that I had to quit masturbating. I asked why and she said, "Because I'm trying to examine you."

FIVE:I was walking down the road and saw my Afghani neighbor Abdul standing on his fifth floor apartment balcony shaking a carpet. I shouted up to him, "What's wrong, Abdul? Won't it start?"

SIX:My girlfriend and I were making love when she looked up at me and said, "Make love to me like in the movies." So I turned her over on all fours, stuck it in her ass, pulled out, flipped her back over and came all over her face and hair. I never saw her again after that night. I guess we don't watch the same movies.

It's from a cool porn site....